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Worry
and Anxiety
by A. Gene Veal
Philippians
4:6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and
petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
BEING
IGNORANT OF GOD’S LOVE
Let me say this very
carefully. A fact that everyone of us has to face is that when we feel
that life is meaningless, when we are bored with life, when we feel dead
in our spirits, with our emotional hurts and pains, with our mental
confusion ... all of those phrases add up to one thing, that at least at
that moment we are IGNORANT OF THE LOVE GOD HAS FOR US. For when I know
the love God has for me, then my mental confusion disperses like fog on a
summer’s morning. The hurts and pains of my life are healed by His
presence. Boredom is a word that can never be used of a person who walks
in the love of God. This is the answer. It is the final key to all of our
spiritual, mental, emotional health and, indeed, our physical health, too.
The Love of God.
One major symptom of not
actively believing the love which God has for me is worry and anxiety. I
believe, based on an intense research of Scripture, that anxiety, worry
and fear need have no place in the life of a believer. I believe that with
all my heart. I should never have my mind troubled by anxiety and worry if
I live in the consciousness of the love God has for me. From the beginning
to the end of the Bible the Spirit tells us plainly, "Do not
worry." In the Old Testament He gives us case history after case
history of persons who were placed in situations that caused them to
worry. Then He shows us how they came out of it, living in the love of
God. The New Testament is full of similar commands.
I want you to realize this
because we tend to treat worry casually. We ALL worry.
Read this: BE ANXIOUS FOR NOTHING. That is a command. It is not a
suggestion. God doesn’t come to us and say, "Well, I know how it
is. You live in terrible times. I understand." He doesn’t. He says,
"Be anxious for nothing. End of discussion."
ANXIOUS?
What do we mean by
"anxious?" It would be better if we substituted the word
"worry" or "fretting." I think anxiety is associated
in our minds with something almost clinical like a "panic
attack." This is talking about the daily stuff that worries us. Stuff
that we fret over. Stuff that makes your stomach go into knots and gives
you a headache and a pain in the back of your neck.
I will tell you what it
is. It is STEWING WITHOUT DOING. It is when it is going around and around
and around inside. You are doing nothing about it, because there is
nothing to do about it, except to let it bubble and boil in our heads. The
words in the languages of the Bible, Hebrew and Greek, mean to be
distracted. It means to be divided. In modern English it means to feel
that you are falling apart. In the Hebrew it means to be shaken as if you
have yourself in the mouth of some dog, like a rag doll that is being
shaken to and fro. You will find it in the Old Testament something like,
"the righteous shall not be shaken." It means the
righteous don’t worry. It means your head isn’t being shaken like a
rag doll.
WORRY?
What does the word
"worry" mean? Interestingly, the word in ancient English means
"to choke or to strangle." So when you worry, the meaning of the
English word is that somebody has you by your spiritual throat and is
choking the life out of you. I think that is about it, isn’t it? When
ever you worry you feel a sense of helplessness. It is when my mind is
paralyzed and I become incapable of rational thought. It goes around and
around and around. Like the merry-go-round. It keeps going, but it doesn’t
go anywhere. Around and around and around. You get a thought in your head
and it gets you. It keeps going around and around. Even though you are
incapable of doing anything about it, you have the same thought going on,
over and over because you have no conclusion to it. You have been cut off.
You have been choked. Something has you by your mind and choking you so
you can’t think creatively. Choked. Strangled.
A person who worries, at
least while they are worrying, is incapable of creative, energetic living.
The people who are old before their time. They look haggard. It will even
bend your body over because creative life (or as Jesus said, "Life
more abundant") is being choked. It can’t get though. You say,
"Well, I’m just a worrier." No. No. This is serious stuff. It
chokes off the Spirit Which is love, joy and peace. It is all gone. Here I
sit, worrying.
UNBELIEF
God takes so much interest
in worry because it is unbelief. And it is unbelief in such deep disguise
that when we meet someone exercising this particular form of unbelief, we
feel like giving them sympathy. "There, there, now. You will be all
right." Whereas, God says, "No. Repent. Stop this way of
life." This isn’t something to give you sympathy, to affirm you in
your worry. It is rather to say, "Stop that, at once. Be anxious for
nothing."
Why is it UNBELIEF?
Because I am going to show you that all worry, all my fretting and stewing
is simply not believing that God is in control. I don’t believe God is
in control, at least for the moment I’m in control. Or, I am trying to
be. That is all the trouble because I am trying to be what I can’t be
and was never meant to be. There I go trying to be it.
At least for the moment, I
don’t believe God knows all things. I aim to find out all things. I don’t
believe God has a clue what is happening. So I have to send out my puny
little brain on its merry-go-round to try to think what is happening. I
don’t believe that God is all Wise and has a perfect plan that even at
this moment, in the midst of what I am calling evil, He is meaning for
good. I don’t believe that.
And in this moment of
worry, I certainly don’t believe that He loves me limitlessly and
unconditionally. I don’t believe He cares for me and numbers the very
hairs of my head. I don’t believe that when I am worrying. I believe I
am alone in this world and all this evil that is happening to me and I
have got to know tomorrow, and I have to work out my own plan.
That is why I say,
"Worry is a radical kind of unbelief." We have dared to take the
place of God in our lives. We are thinking that we are supposed to (and
not only supposed to, but we think we can) somehow control our future.
THE
MISUSE OF IMAGINATION
When we worry, we
determine to use our imagination other than the way it was created to be
used. It was made to "see" God in everything, but when we worry
we take it into a non-existent world. This is a dangerous world. In this a
non-existent world, no angel is there. Not even God Himself is there,
because God only exists in reality. God can’t be in what isn’t.
Here am I (when I worry)
going into the land of "is not." I am going into the "never
never land" that doesn’t exist. You see tomorrow doesn’t exist.
Here, in my imagination, I have created what I think will happen tomorrow,
what I think possibly could happen tomorrow. It is all fantasy. It is
total fantasy.
Another word for fantasy
is LIES. My God is the God of truth. He is Reality. He is in the NOW. He
is in the REAL life. And so I am out there alone, really alone. The only
thing I hear are demonic voices that keep telling me how bad it is going
to be, pushing me on into further lies.
WHAT IF?
The magic password into
the land of "is not" is the "WHAT IF?" All you do is
get into the misuse of imagination and say the magic words, "WHAT
IF?" Then you are on your way. What if I lose my job? What if I can’t
get another one? What if I get sick and there is no money? What if they
raise the rent? If I lose my job we will all die on the street. What if?
All the insane "what
if’s" about the job tomorrow can weigh you down tonight. Perhaps
you have already started your "what if’s." What if this
happens or that happens. It is endless. You could spend all night, but you
see, it is all fantasy, it is all lies, because probably nothing will
happen. If what happens does happen, it is probably not what you thought
would happen exactly any how.
We sit there, or lay there
in bed at night, going through every possibility. You think, "What if
my son-in-law loses his job?" "If they become destitute, we don’t
have enough to support them. What will we do?" Then you wake your
husband up and ask him how they are going to support themselves if he
loses his job. Your husband has no idea what on earth you are talking
about, because until you brought it up, he thought he had a very secure
job. What if? Out there in the "never never" world of unreality,
where there are no angels and God Himself cannot come, it is only a
nightmare. Turn the magic key and you are off into a Disney Land of
Apocalypse Now.
WORRY
ABOUT NOTHING
Mind you, this isn’t in
major crisis. See what it says, "Be anxious in NOTHING." In the
Greek it is saying, "Be anxious not even in one thing." Just in
case you missed the point. In case you missed it negatively, he comes in
positively and says, "But in everything (that is, how ever small,
ever how insignificant) give thanks." No matter what it is, it must
not disturb my harmony and peace. I cannot be disturbed over anything, not
even one thing.
Jesus spoke so much about
this. It is interesting that when He spoke about this, He said that we
would find this temptation about anxiety in the area of food, clothes,
shelter, possessions. It is interesting to me that the things that Jesus
said not to be anxious for ... that is what fills our televisions screens.
That is the subject of most commercials and is the hidden message in most
of what is televised. The world says to be anxious for this ... if you don’t
have this, don’t bother to live ... you don’t have this or that? how
could you ever be happy without it? ... they say, "Be anxious if you
don’t have these things."
Jesus says, "Don’t
be anxious over food. Don’t be anxious over shelter. Don’t be."
He says to not be as the Gentiles, or a better word is
"heathen." Heathen are those who have not received a revelation
of Who God is. He said that you know Who God is. You know He is your Abba,
your Father Who unconditionally loves you. He says not to be anxious over
things such as this. These, while basis things, are important things.
Remember the parable Jesus
gave of the sower. It comes up again, only the word He uses is much closer
to the meaning of this word in English. Remember where He says, "The
thorns came up and CHOKED it." Remember what he said was the thorns
that choke you? "THE CARES AND WORRIES OF THIS WORLD." He said
they choke you.
Don’t misunderstand.
Jesus did not teach anywhere in the Scriptures that we are not to prepare
for tomorrow. Nowhere does it teach that. But this is what it does teach,
that I must do today what must be done today, in order for tomorrow to be
fruitful, BUT NOT TO TRY TO GO INTO TOMORROW AND TRY TO DO WHAT BELONGS TO
TOMORROW. So I have, as Jesus said, twelve hours in a day to work. God
gives us increments of life in 12 hour slots. Jesus says, "Now, don’t
you dare go into tomorrow and do what belongs to its 12 hours today. You
do today what must be done today, in order that when the next 12 hours
comes around, you will be ready to do what has to be done that day."
If you are a farmer, when
it is springtime you put the seed into the ground. But now when you have
the seed in your hand, you don’t stop and say, "I wonder what the
weather forecast will be in June." "Will we have a tornado in
June? Will we have hail? Is it worth planting this seed?" No. You
see, because June is not in my domain in the spring, it is none of my
business what happens in June. I have one thing to do in springtime and
that is plant seed. Because when I plant seed in the springtime, I will
then harvest in the fall. Whatever happens in between, well,
"sufficient unto the day," that is, when that increment of 12
hours comes, I will deal with it as God leads me, but not until it comes.
But if you sit down as to worry what will happen, if you proceed in this
manner, you will be so paralyzed with fear, you will forget to plant the
seed and then there will be no harvest even if there is no tornado in June.
Active? Yes. In fact, the
person who does not worry about tomorrow is more active today than the
person who does worry about tomorrow, because he is no longer choked in
his creativity, no longer is he strangled by worry. He is a free person.
WORRY HAS
FRIENDS
Worry brings with it a lot
of friends. Certain sinful behaviors associate with worry which causes
only further dysfunction as a human being. For instance, I become angry.
What’s that nice word we use now days, I become uptight. Worrying in the
office, you come home and kick the cat. You yell at your kids and snap at
your wife. They have nothing to do with it. You are worried about
something in the office, but you are lashing out at everybody. That’s
one of worry’s friends, anger at non-related persons and events.
Always, worry brings with
it self-pity. I find that in between me worrying over this awful life that
I have created in "never never land," I sit down and say,
"Why me?" I mean, it hasn’t happened to anybody else. I then
go further into envy and I look at everybody else in the congregation and
I enter into lying and I say, "It never happened to them." And I
ask God why He always blesses the Smiths and never blesses me. It always
happens. There is this pity party and you are allowed to come if you bring
gifts, like sympathy, that nod of the head that says, "I don’t know
how you manage." Then you are allowed to join the party.
Or we learn the art of
dumping on others. It is a very careful art, you see. You don’t just go
around and do it. You are careful about it. Just after you have left they
can’t figure out why they are all in depression. You can always see the
dark side and you bring in all your troubles and you carefully lay them
all around. Not that your troubles leave you, you still have them but you
share them all with everyone. "No," says the Scripture. "Be
anxious for nothing." Repent. Change your mind about this.
IT DOESN’T
TELL YOU NOT TO WORRY
Notice, if it just said,
"Be anxious for nothing" it would be no better than what the
world gives you. The world says, "Cheer up. Don’t worry." This
isn’t saying, "Don’t worry." In fact, that is very bad
advice. God would never tell you not to worry. If God told you not to
worry, then you would immediately concentrate all of your efforts on
worry. In fact, you would have then bound yourself to worry. You have
multiplied the power of worry in your life. And of course you will
continue to worry and then you will worry that you are worrying. And so it
goes on until you find yourself in chains.
You never go into a dark
room and attack the darkness and try to throw it out. Nor does Jesus say
to attack worry. If you attack worry and say you are not going to, you
will immediately do that. It doesn’t merely say, "Do not be anxious
for anything." It doesn’t say just that. It says, rather, to stop
worrying by doing something else. "Be anxious for nothing, but- BUT
in everything by prayer and supplication, make your requests known unto
God."
That is, he is saying you
are concentrating on the problem. You are concentrating on problems that
don’t even exist yet. You are giving your entire life to thinking about
problems and you are giving what is left of you to trying to find
resources within yourself to answer those problems. He says, "NOW,
STOP THAT! REPENT. STOP. CHANGE YOUR MIND. BE ANXIOUS FOR NOTHING, BUT
TURN YOUR ATTENTION THE OTHER DIRECTION, MAKE YOUR REQUESTS KNOWN TO
GOD." Turn your whole attention to God.
Our anxieties and our
fears arise out of a lifestyle in which we have forgotten God. I don’t
know a gentler way of saying that. The great benediction of the Church,
"THE GRACE OF THE LORD JESUS CHRIST, THE LOVE OF GOD, OUR ABBA, OUR
FATHER, AND THE FELLOWSHIP OF THE HOLY SPIRIT BE WITH YOU ALL." You
can’t worry in that. To live in the grace, the energy of God’s love
coming to us through Jesus Christ. The unconditional love of God which
streams to us from the Father is made known to us in Jesus Christ. And the
fellowship of the Holy Spirit, Who is closer to us than breathing, Who
brings to us that love. You can’t worry in the midst of that.
Again, let me say this
very carefully, as gently as I know how, that when we worry we are really
saying that in this particular case, I deem that God is irrelevant. He
doesn’t really apply here. "I’ll be back later, God. I have got
to handle this one. In this case the love of God the Father does not
apply. In this case the fellowship of the Holy Spirit could never meet
this one. Of course, when we talk about it like this, it is ridiculous.
You know it is ridiculous. You do. We believe that we are in charge here.
HOW
DO I OBEY THAT COMMAND?
Choose to believe. Faith
is a choice. In my studies on fear and worry, I have found that 366 times
in the Scripture it says, "Fear not." I suddenly realized that
that is a command. I realized that I had thought that fear and worry,
well, you can’t help that. But the Scripture says you can. You stop that, FEAR NOT.
How do I "FEAR
NOT?" That is, how do I obey that command. It has nothing to do with
your feelings. It is a choice. It is a choice to believe God. I choose to
believe His presence is with me and it is in His presence that my fear is
swallowed up.
In prayer this morning, as
in every morning, Lucy and I (I started to say "said") ... No,
we HURLED the Apostle’s Creed into the darkness. You should do that,
too. Do you understand? I FEEL the urge to worry. Then hurl it out ... I
BELIEVE IN GOD, THE FATHER ALMIGHTY, CREATOR OF HEAVEN AND EARTH. etc.
That is your choice. The other choice would be "I do not
believe." Well, I make the choice to believe. I believe in God,
the Abba. He is my Father. He loves me. I am His child. He is "Almighty"
and there is no problem I have that can match that.
You see, I stop, and deliberately choose to declare my choice OUT LOUD.
"I BELIEVE IN GOD, THE FATHER ALMIGHTY, CREATOR OF HEAVEN AND
EARTH."
TO GOD
"... present your
requests to God" It is a deliberate turning from our supposed
problems, from our non-existent resources, TO GOD. In fact, the Greek word
for "to" in "let your requests be made known to
God" means "unto in." You could use this as "living in
vital union with." It means "communion." It could be used
for intercourse. It is two joined together. So he is saying, "making
your requests made known in your union with God." You are aware that
you are joined to Him. Aware that His love that took the initiative has
come into you and you are in Him, and you two are one. AWARE of that
"make your requests known to God."
So you see, you don’t
come against worry. You don’t try to attack the darkness. You come TO God, the God I am joined to. Freedom from
worry is not a formula. I know, we love the idea of "ten steps to
overcoming worry," but there is no formula. Rather, it is a growing
relationship with the God we are in fellowship with.
Over and over again it
says in Scripture, "Fear not, for I am with you." Notice, it is
not just "fear not," it is "fear not, FOR I AM WITH
YOU." You remember David said, "I will fear no evil, FOR THOU
ART WITH ME." It is a consciousness. It is an awareness of His
presence. Note the words here in our text, just before this, it says,
"The Lord is near." That doesn’t’ refer to the nearness of
the Second Coming. It means He is NEAR. He is closer than breathing. You
could almost say, "The Lord is near, therefore, be anxious for
nothing." His presence is what counts.
"Be still and KNOW
THAT I AM GOD." Do you know that Psalm, "Though the
mountains roll into the sea." Now that is some kind of earthquake.
That Psalm describes the collapse of everything that you thought would be
there forever. As the world is collapsing around the writer in Psalm 46,
he says, "Be still ... hush... Be still and know that I am God."
Now, you be still. Just
acknowledge God. Sometimes there is nothing to say, He is there and you
acknowledge Him. He is Sovereign. He reigns over all. He is the Almighty.
He is All-knowing. He is infinitely present. He is All Wise. And He loves
me unconditionally. And He said He is with me. He is for me. He is on my
side. BE AWARE.
PRAYER,
SUPPLICATION, KNOWN
"...in every thing
by prayer and supplication" Prayer means that general turning
toward God, basically what we have just been saying.
"Supplication" does not mean a general turning toward God. It
means a specific request made about a specific situation.
Then he says, in case you
didn’t catch it, "let your requests be made known."
"Requests" means a specific presenting. Another place in the New
Testament where that word is used is when the Jews requested Barabbas to
be released by Pilot instead of Jesus. That was specific. We don’t want
Fred, Jack, etc. We want Barabbas.
So the Holy Spirit is
saying here, "Turn toward God and very specifically share with Him
EXACTLY what the cause of the worry is." Specifically lay it before
Him. That is what He is saying.
"... be made KNOWN
...." "Known" means to fully uncover. It means to lay
the case out. This isn’t saying, "Oh God, bless me." That is
almost an insult to God. I mean, you go into such detail in "never
never land" and now coming into "real real land" be every
bit as specific and revealing as you were in your fantasy of evil.
God demonstrates this by
giving us the Psalms. We are overhearing a man talk with His God. And most
of the time he is in trouble. Read them and you will see that he just
spills it all out. He tells God how he feels and sometimes you feel there
is fire coming out of his ears, he is so clear about how he feels. He
wants people dead, their wife a widow, their children orphans. He doesn’t
go to them and kill them. Nor does he tell the whole church what he wants.
He tells God how he feels. It is OK. Stop pretending that good Christians
never get angry. Present it all to God. He can handle it and He can deal
with you in a loving way. Let God have your anger. Be very specific. This
is very Biblical.
Remember the two on the
road to the village called Emmaus. The bottom has dropped out of their
life. They believed Jesus was the Messiah. They watched Him die. And
Jesus, freshly risen from the dead, comes walking beside them. For what
ever reason, they don’t recognize Him. Jesus says, "You fellows
look so down." They say, "Are you the only person in Jerusalem
that hasn’t heard what happened." (He was the only One Who really
did know what had happened.)
Notice His response.
"What things?" "Tell me." "What’s bugging you
guys?" Well, they spilled it all out. There is hardly a pause.
"We had hoped ..." "We thought ..." "We are
disillusioned ..." Then He starts with Moses and all the prophets and
explains to them until their heart was burning inside of them.
Do you realize that our
Risen Lord would not deal with their problems until He had them pour it
all out before Him? He teased it out of them, then He dealt with it. Just
go through your Bible and search out the questions of God. You will be
impressed at how God deals with man.
God asks questions,
answers to which He already knew. He made us to communicate
with Him. Sometimes we are so slow to do that, that He pulls it out of us.
Don’t say that God knows already, TELL HIM. THAT IS WHAT HE WANTS.
"Adam, where are you?" He knew. "Who told you that you were
naked?" He knew. "What have you done?" He knew. "Where
is Abel, your brother?" He knew.
God knows all the answers
to all the questions, yet He asks them. Why? To get man to talk to Him.
God has chosen that He can not help us until we will spill it out.
"LET YOUR REQUESTS BE MADE KNOW TO GOD." This is the emphasis
here ... MAKE IT KNOWN. This is not the time to tell God what to do. The
essence of worry is "I don’t know what to do." I don’t know.
I stand helpless. Life is caving in on me. I don’t know the answer to
this. It is not the time to tell God to make them all go away. Don’t
bring God into your "never never land." Just expose it. Make it
known to Him Who knows all things. Give it to Him.
I face situations all the
time where I simply do not know the answer. Often I even go through the
physical jesters of holding out my cupped hands, palms up, and saying,
"Here, Father, I give it to You. I am helpless. Take this (naming it
specifically) into Your love for me. I give it over to You. Because You
love me so much, it belongs to You. I give it over to You right now. Do
what ever has to be done, because I don’t know." One by one, I give
each situation, each problem, each person, each hurt to Him Who does all
things well. To my flesh that is such a sense of helplessness, cause I am
not even telling God what to do. I don’t know. It is a real abandonment
to Him.
"Our Father Who is in
heaven. Your Name be hallowed in this situation, person, etc. In this
case, let Your Kingdom come, let Your government be. I don’t know how
You can work it out, but I know You are the All Wise One, the All Knowing
One and that you love everyone of us, even those who are in an enemies
posture right now, you love us unconditionally. Let Your will be done on
earth now, as it is in heaven. And forgive us as we forgive each other.
Etc."
WITH
THANKSGIVING
"... with
thanksgiving" We don’t just come blundering in. He says to
remember God’s track record. It is a good one. Forget not all His
benefits. Remember. And then the peace of God ... the shalom of God ...
will guard your hearts and your minds.
PEACE
"Shalom" is a
bigger word than our word "peace." First of all, it is not
changing circumstances. See, our idea of peace is that everybody finally
does it our way. But that is not the Hebrew understanding of peace. Shalom
means that in the middle of chaos, I have peace. That passes all human
comprehension. The word contains in it the idea of success and prosperity.
It means I have this success, peace and harmony in my spirit. It means I
have harmony in my mind. I am successful in my thinking, I have creative
light in my mind. I have prosperity in my emotions. Love and joy and peace
so that even my body is successful at being a body. It is at rest.
Proverbs goes so far as to say, "When a man’s ways please the Lord,
even his enemies shall have shalom with him." Instead of dumping my
gloom on people, I am one who carries shalom where ever I go, the peace of
God. It is just beyond our comprehension.
"Thou will keep him
in perfect peace whose mind is stayed upon thee." The Hebrews actually
did not have a word for "perfect peace" so it is "peace
peace" in the original. Double dose. Peace upon peace. The word for
mind is IMAGINATION. Your imagination is not established in the
"never never land" of unreality, but your imagination is upon
Him Who is Reality, Truth. Your imagination is not rooted in the insane
lies of "what if." Your imagination is stayed and established in
Who God is.
In Psalm 23, David
imagines tomorrow and evil, but he does not surrender to that evil. He
says, "Even if tomorrow has me walking through the valley of the
shadow of death, I WILL FEAR NO EVIL (why?) FOR THOU ART WITH ME."
There is evil, but in his imagination he sees the greater, which is GOD
WITH HIM. He imagines God in all of his tomorrows. And, knowing God, he
says, "Surely goodness and mercy will follow me all the days
(tomorrows) of my life." That is a correct use of the imagination,
SEEING GOD WITH YOU. THIS IS SINGLE VISION... SEEING GOD IN ALL THINGS.
So you take your
tomorrows, that do not exist, and you take the specific person and the
specific situation that is causing you to go off into "what if’s,"
and you take that person, that thing, and you just give them to God. And
then when you think of tomorrow, it is basically saying that whatever
happens, though it is a valley of deep darkness, I here and now say I
believe in God, the Father Almighty. I will fear no evil for THOU ART WITH
ME.
What ever tomorrows hold
for me, my spouse, my children, my children’s children, surely goodness
and lovingkindness WILL follow (the word is "pursue" like
hunting dogs) us all our days. Goodness and lovingkindness are like those
hunting dogs that ever pursue me and are always leaping upon me. They
follow me, pursue me relentlessly, all the days of my life.
Psalm 55: 22 Cast your
cares on the LORD and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous
fall.
This peace of God will
keep you, will garrison you round about, as you live from Him Who lives in
you, for it is true of us that
TO LIVE IS
CHRIST .
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